... etonic's journey ...
Saturday, October 31, 2009
it's 2 down n 2 more 2 go...yet another disappointing one...marketing n mab r e 2 tests tt i passed...yet e exams turned out 2 b so damn hard...e nez 2 papers r e 2 tests tt i failed...im veri demoralised 2 study now...seriously dunno wat happened 2 me...i cant get myself going n illness haf been visiting me veri often...i dun feel lyk studying nemore...rite now...im juz looking 4ward 2 e end of exams...n totallie not looking 4ward 2 e dae results released...coz i got a strong feeling tt my results r gonna b e same as my uol results...
it's pouring heavily now n i got a gd drenched juz now despite being so sick...i wanna wake myself up...juz wat haf i been doing tis whole sem aside frm playing?!?all e scarifices i made juz 2 study fulltime seemed lyk it's wasted...i focus on e wrong things n it's 2 late 2 back off now...all i can do is 2 wait till results r out...
i h8 rainy daes coz it's so troublesome when im out...but i luv it when im sleeping...though 2dae i came hm without an umbrella...i still heart 2dae's weather...coz tt's exactly wat im feeling now...plus it's hm alone!!!
Friday, October 30, 2009
i haf a convo wif a friend (f) lately...c wat he told me (m)...f: u okie??
m: yup
f: but u sound upset
m: where got...
f: coz u dun sound lyk ur normal self...
m: nothing lah...lolx
f: when a gal sae nothing...she means something
m: y u sae tt??
f: coz i learned it thru a hard wae...
how i wish all guys will b lyk him...b more sensitive 2wards gals feelings can?!?it doesnt mean it haf 2 b 2wards e person u lyk...frenz matters alot 2...sometimes...i juz dunno how 2 put my words across...coz i dun lyk 2 express myself directly...im tired...juz give me a break...
tongue tied:
i need a little more luck den a little bit
coz everytime i get stuck e words wun fit
n everytime i tried 2 get tongue tied
i need a little gd luv 2 get me by
i need a little more help den a little bit
lyk e perfect 1 word no 1 shd get
coz everytime i tried 2 get tongue tied
i need a little gd luv 2 get me by tis time
**i dun feel lyk doing nemore things...becoz no matter how hard i try...some things juz wun change...
Thursday, October 29, 2009
1 down...3 more 2 go...2dae marks e start of my exams...1st paper is marketing and it's wae disappointing...e paper is reallie tough n wateva i studied n memorised didnt come out...even e mcq r so diff frm e past yr papers...i juz hope im able 2 pass e paper...even if it's juz 25/50...im more den happie...
6 more daes 2 break-free!!! =))
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
1 whole yesterdae of mab n 1 whole 2dae of law...i hope i've made it up 2 all e distractions/moo-lahs over e weekends...n it's gonna b a 1 whole tml of marketing...n exam will commence on thu...tis exam sux...coz it's 1 dae paper...1 dae break...1 dae paper n so on...4 papers within 7 daes...oh my tian!!!n i've been donating hard 2 e starbucks economy i guess...can they gif me a free lifetime membership?!?hahanehow it's past 12am which marks 28th oct...so...happie anniversary pam!!!juz how times flies...been a yr+ since we known each other...all e ups n downs tt we've seen each other going thru...thanz 4 acc me thru all my tough times n oso spent e happiest times 2gether...i guess perhaps 2 of us r juz so accident-proned...soft-hearted...emotional-hurt easily...playful...blah blah blah...2 much similarities in a wae...as of now...no matter wat's gonna happened...u gotta b strong k...n plkc...u betta take lotsa care frm now on!!!
newae came across something frm a veri gd frenz's blog...cant review her name coz hers is a private blog...lolx...something tt describes me so perfectly as of now...life sux...
tis is juz oh-so-true...haixx
Monday, October 26, 2009
my world came crashing down since e start of e weekends...it's been reallie torturous...heart wrenching...suffering frm insomnia...slight loss of appetite...no mood 2 study at all...everything is juz so negative...but im glad that e weekend ended perfectly well...thanz 2 my dearest boyz...they r none other den my fellow/ex-canoeists...my bros...n where we started out e alcoholics group...n thru richard n kenny...i got 2 noe quite a lot of frenz...they haf been my closest ones as well...dere may alwaes b alcohols ard...but hu cares...that's wat make all e forfiets even more challenging...n htht-ing nv fails 2 b e bez...though they alwaes call me as their bro or treat me lyk a bro...but deep down...frm e care they showered me wif...i noe they treat me lyk a younger sis even though im older den few of them...
e fun...e joy...e laughter tt they brought 2 me endlessly...alwaes e 1st 2 b dere 4 me when they noe im feeling down or depressed even if it might b over e smallest thing...juz wat more could i ask 4...i heart them super duper lots!!!thanz so much 4 everything...n ending my weekend wif a big smile...=))
e bez of e bez bros 1 will eva get
thanz 4 all e advises...it reallie helps alot...n i'll focus on my studies frm tml onwards...
**i noe u dun read blogs...but if u so eva happened 2 come across my blog...all e bez 4 ur paper tml...
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i wasted tis whole weekends...doing nothing except rotting @ hm...haixx...i hope ltr will b fun...cant wait 2 c my boyz...hope dere will b lotsa alcohols dere...drink drank drunk...though it's a very wrong moment 2 drink coz of exams...but i cant get 2 study newae...tis sem is a bad bad sem...my results r wae 2 demoralising...**y does e last dae reallie seems 2 b e last dae??
Saturday, October 24, 2009
i luv u...if onlie i could tell u how i feel...but i cant...
these few days haf been veri torturous 4 me...
i've been asking gf 2 let go...mayb i shd learn 2 let go 2...
im tired...enuff is enuff...
all i want now is juz 2
Friday, October 23, 2009
toothache --> fever --> headache --> cant concentrate on studying --> siansationsbut...i still refuse 2 consult a doctor...coz...ne medications will make me sleep despite whether it causes drowsiness a not...
i h8 wisdom
hopes gf will haf a speedy recovery...we'll aim 2 row e nez marathon 2gether...n tt's scm in jan...let's work 2wards our goal...=))
when it's time 2 let go...juz let it go...no point holding on 2 something tt will end up making urself feeling so upset abt...look back at ur past...e smile tt u alwaes put on everywhere u go...now it seems 2 b gone...alwaes trying 2 hide up ur feelings n putting an act in front of every1...i noe how tired these things can b...juz let it go k...afterall happiness is still e most impt...moreover...dere's some1 wae betta hu's alwaes by ur side...b back ur bubbly side k...miss hanging out everydae wif u juz lyk e past...pls get well soon!!!
**guys r 2pid...throw stones @ them!!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
tests results are all out...out of 5 tests...i failed 2...pass 2...n 1 credit...damn chui...tis is wat happened when i onlie studied e nite b4 or on e dae itself of e tests...got di 4 my tutorial...n now im left wif 1 assignment...cross fingers...got 2 work reallie hard 4 exams...haixx
Friday, October 16, 2009
finallie ended my temp job at rbs on wed after extending n extending...i hope dere will b vacancy 4 me after exams...i miss working so much...n i miss every1 dere...so much fun during e past 2+ weeks...nehow 1 of my colleague (c) reminded me (k) tis...c: how's skool n how did u do 4 exams??
k: erm...so so onlie...
c: how cum??
k: been playing alot coz fulltime student veri slack...even worse den when i was studying partime n working fulltime...
c: muz study hard n dun keep playing...dun 4get y u quit ur job...
it hit me so hard...coz it totallie slip off my mind...e reason of me resigning last yr...n yeah my results haf been so shitty eversince last sem...all barely pass...n tis sem is wae worse...i failed so many tests coz i focus more on cca rather den my studies...i cant afford 2 haf another round of uol results...so im gonna mug reallie hard 4 exams n hopefullie able 2 pull back my marks...n pls pardon me if im gonna backout ne outings 4 e time being...last paper on 4th nov...cant wait!!!
*if u happened 2 read tis...i lost e bet...cant even get a pass not even 2 mention a credit...u may claim ur treat ne time after 4th nov...but pls spare my wallet frm getting a hole...lolx
n i shall update a whole 2 mths of happenings after exams...lots n lots of fun starting frm my stong recee till post exams celebrations...=))
**i luv those neoprints!!!juz lyk how i... =))
Thursday, October 08, 2009
im so damn pissed off...guys can seriously irritated e shit out of me!!!
Saturday, October 03, 2009
happie mid-autumn 2 all!!!eat more mooncakes n grow fat fat!!!hee...haf fun carrying lanterns!!!i luv my galz!!!a crazy nite spent wif my so called princesses cum risk cliques...=))
i heart planes 2!!! =)) when will it b my turn 2 b e passenger??i wanna travel so badly!!!japan uk n us...r u still waiting 4 me?!?
<--her world-->
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.29th jan 1986.
.code: #03.
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.i choose 2 luv in silence.
.4 in silence i find no rejection.
.i choose 2 luv in ur loneliness.
.4 in ur loneliness no 1 owns but
me.
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.nv luv a luv tt hurts.
.nv hurt a luv tt luvs.
.she desires.
.prada wallet + bag.
.b a trader.
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she reads...
everyone screams!!!