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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

since tis is my blog...i shall juz rant everything here n not on frenz...it's gonna b a sensitive issue but yea not gonna care nemore wif all e happenings now...tis is e 1st time i joined a cca wif politics n i seriously h8 it...i understand work n sch wif politics...but when it comes to cca...i dun c e reason...every1 has e same interest in e sport...1 same target 2 work 2wards 2...juz dun understand some things...

dere's been so many sadly 2 sae...bad things or rather things tt r not running smoothly in canoe...i put my msn nick as -->k<Ý>|îë<-- wanna quit *****...only 3 pple managed 2 guess it on e 1st try when so many asked...coz many dun belief i wanna quit canoe when all my pix r associated wif canoeists...im quite puzzled wif everythign...2 leave or 2 stay??i joined e club coz i haf interest in e sports n i wanna quit bcoz of not juz tt 1 person in particular but how e club haf been running oso...it's rather disappointing in some ways...but i chose 2 stay on after toking 2 junsheng...i tink onlie he n sarah noes how 2 lead e club but in their diff ways...js told me tis...if u dun lyk e sports...it's betta 2 quit...but if u lyk n quit bcoz of 1 person...it's not worth n things can b solved...n if u reallie leave e club...e club will alwae b open 4 u 2 join back...so yah...bcoz of js' words...decision was made den...n partly oso bcoz i've made quite a no. of gd frenz dere which many can c...but if dere's no improvement still...i can sae many will leave e club...they might haf new members joining...but it's gonna alwaes b new members n not e committed ones...

probs probs n probs...exco b it exco...seriously i dun gif a damn 2 how much they praise themselves...we members dun even ask 4 a single thing except 2 feel being appreciated wif e things we've done so far...after e meeting last nite...pam n i were reallie disappointed wif all e speakers...not onlie her alone...but even i oso juz feel lyk walking out of e room 1/2 wae...dere's a big prob wif canoe pple...they onlie used their ears instead of eyes...they luv 2 use their ears 2 listen 2 wat others sae...instead of using their eyes 2 c e actions/efforts every1 haf/haf not put in...it doesnt mean tt exco put in e most effort n members dun gif a damn at all...

bonding 2 them is juz equals 2 going trainings onlie n not outings...if u skipped training...means u r not committed n if u make it 2 outings instead...u r being classified as onlie wanna play...tt's all in e mind i tink...but wat i tink most impt tt bonds a club is actuallie outings instead of trainings...trainings r nothing xcept 2 train...whereas outings pple r out dere 2 haf fun 2gether n understand each other more aside frm topics wif trainings onlie...n when 1 feels they r more bonded wif e team...pple do care 4 them...e motivation n commitment will automatically comes in...despite those hu left e club...did ne1 even msg them when we do haf outings...i tink tis is e least bit tt they shd do...

pple left but when they feel they r not 4gotten...dere's alwaes a higher chance they might return 2 e club...i juz organise a sentosa outing last week...turn out was bad coz most of e pple were working...n it was rather last min...but i put in an effort of getting every1's no. msging them...even those hu left e club...instead of juz asking kanghao 2 4ward 2 all...coz i noe many names will b skipped...got lotsa responses n im quite happie wif tt...but i onlie come 2 realise how much e rest haf been left out by e exco when i saw all e incoming sms-es frm e rest...pple lyk christine n michelle were shocked tt i msg them abt canoe outing...n they even apologised 2 me tt they nv attend trainings...i was lyk tinking...i make frenz not bcoz of wanting them 2 go 4 trainings onlie...but reallie coz they r my frenz...n of coz e rest as well...did e exco actuallie take note of tis??im saeing all these not bcoz i tink i make a betta leader but these r reallie perhaps a minor probs 2 them tt they haf missed out...but in fact it's a major probs in e club...i even told some of them im lyk e pr...got every1's no...it sounds funnie but yah...

i h8 it when canoeists (aside those hu r reallie cares...n u noe hu u r lah!!!) msn me...hey u going training ltr n blah blah blah...e whole chat logs is nothing except canoe...as compared 2 e rest or rather odac...pple reallie cares 4 u n ask u out n stuffs...n hu sae odac onlie go trekking n all e outdoor stuffs...we do organise outings 4 ourselves lyk bowling...or even catching movies 2gether n stuffs...our batch started off quite badly wif all e individual cliques but every1 is much more bonded now...bcoz all of us put in e effort 2 resolve issues n oso by planning a part in taking turns 2 organise outings n bdae celebrations...n turn outs r alwaes not 2 bad...as compared 2 canoe...it's alwae e same bunch of pple doing e organising stuffs...n alwae e same group hu turns up...honestly i dun even wanna gif a damn 2 celebrate those pple's bdae hu alwae reply a no 2 others' n a yes when it's their own bdaes...it's not juz me...but all e organisers felt e same wae...it onlie shows how individualistic u r n how much u make use of others...but at e end of e dae...we juz dun wan ne1 2 feel being left out...things r getting so hard at times...

leadership camp is a gd camp indeed...i saw many good leaders n disappointed wif e canoeists...coz they r alwaes sticking 2 each other...seriously i dunno 4 wat fuck...pple go camp 2 make frenz...n tis camp is e bez chance 4 every1 2 noe other cca's leaders...i cant b bothered wif them n im happie tt i found new leaders in sim...even though i represented odac but they noe im in canoe as well...but i feel damn pai seh when some of them asked me when canoeists alwaes stick 2gether...they nv mix ard...i was totallie stuck at tt moment can...all i can replied was they r all gd frenz...so i guess they got lotsa things 2 share...wat else can i sae 2 cover up 4 them?!?a gd leader is indeed some1 hu uses both their ears n eyes instead of juz e ears okie!!!others got eyes 2 c wat every1 is doing n not juz by listening n being brainwash...n pls do use ur heart as well...go care 4 every1 ard u...e happier a person is...is actuallie e saddest among all e crowd...coz they alwae cover up their feelings...

nehow...if u look ard urself (some1 in particular)...ur closest frenz r all drifting/leaving frm u...even e 1 closest 2 ur heart felt disappointed wif u in many waes...but she dunno how 2 put it 2 u...coz u alwaes press her down wif ur words...we've all definitely drifted...many harshful words came out frm e 3 of us...but deep down...we do n we still noe hu cares 4 each other...but sometimes...pple onlie shows out their anger bcoz they r onlie able 2 do tt...but it's hard 2 show out when 1 is hurt...it's alwaes e hurtful part tt's e probs n not reallie e anger...it's juz lyk a wound can heal but a scar can nv b healed...

|ost in |uv @ 3:20 pm

Thursday, June 11, 2009

my dearest injuries...will u pls heal faster...im getting wae 2 fat!!!need 2 workout my body real soon!!!

|ost in |uv @ 2:39 am

Saturday, June 06, 2009

23/05/09 --> hApPiE bDaE xIaNg ZhOnG~!~!~!
25/05/09 --> 4 yrs n counting~!~!~!
28/05/09 --> hApPiE 7tH mOnThSaRy pAm~!~!~!
30/05/09 --> hApPiE bDaE yIyAo~!~!~!
01/06/09 --> hApPiE bDaE jIaXuAn~!~!~!
02/06/09 --> hApPiE bDaE jAiMe~!~!~!
parents saw all my injuries...they were shocked...real shocked...n of coz i got questioned lyk mad...but im smart at finding excuses 2 cover up everything...coz if i told them i got bruises frm canoe n e rest after clubbing...mum is so gonna stop me frm going training n out wif frenz...but my excuses were not lies though...it's juz tt i put it another wae instead of refering 2 cca or frenz...i told her i knock myself n got all e bruises...n e rest i told her i trip n fall n skid...i noe she dun belief...coz e injuries were quite serious...b4 she questioned further...i interrupted n sae i alwae walk blindly...bump or fall down wat...n she kept quiet...heng ah...at least i didnt tell a lie...haha

newae...haf been tis past week as acca invigilator...is damn boring!!!all of us got separated n if it's not bcoz i managed 2 make new frenz n keep crapping wif them during work...i dunno how m i gonna pass e time...n every1 tinks im crazy 2 go work when i've 2 limp ard...mayb it's juz me...i got e responsibility when it comes 2 work...n of coz if it's lecture...u dun haf 2 ask me n i'll pon myself...lolx...nehow tis will b e last time i'll b working 4 acca...coz e pay is damn low n e distance is damn far n inconvenient n it's a damn boring job!!!

results r out...managed 2 clear all modules...even though my results sux totallie...but i tink aside frm e stupidity of wat i did during stats exam...im quite satisfied wif e sucky results...coz i noe i studied everything kind of last min...n trader contacted me on results dae itself...wat a nice timing...lolx...gonna meet up wif him soon n i hope i'll get e job...n den nez sem is gonna b an extremely buzzy busy sem 4 me...wif fulltime studies + partime job + odac exco + canoe training...got 2 plan my schedule well...

-20/05-
haf my haircut...zam brought me 2 his hairstylist near selegie...change my hairstyle...but my hair juz haf 2 grow so fast...it's poking my eyes oledi!!!nehow his service was good n im happie wif e new cut even though many still prefer my previous style...guess im gonna try something new again 2-3 mths ltr...shopped a bit b4 joyce wong came 2 meet us...n i continued wif tt little gal...

-21/05-
dinner wif richard @ vivo's mussels guy...e food is damn good n filling!!!or mayb coz we ordered alot oso + e price is damn nice!!!haha...nice atmosphere...sea breeze...so relax...good chit-chat...makes e nite so good n comfy...we joined eric junsheng n vincent 4 supper @ chinatown ltr...n js n me react 2 colourful flag damn fast...haha...surprise i noe alot of logos n stuffs rite?!?

food we ordered @ mussels guy...4get 2 take richard's dish + our soup + tea
-22/05-
a last min meet up...chill-ed wif pam @ vivo 1st...den richard n vincent joined...followed by mervyn n jason...dinner @ marche...den an impromptu decision 2 st. james...it was a perfect nite...a super duper crazy n wild one...wif so many nice pix esp e shi lian pai (10 shots) ones...till i wanna post all of them up but im lazy 2 do all e collages...so pls c frm facebook...lolx...we opened 2 bottles of whisky...aside frm pam n jason hu drank e least...e 4 of us drank damn alot till we were all so high + seh + merlion...haha...saw my ex-colleague eda wif her hubby n frenz...they opened 3 bottles of vodka...even more zhai rite?!?eda gave us 1 bottle...n i poured niq str8 into her mouth...she revenged n poured even more into mine...n their vodka r not e absolute ones but more 2 e high end ones n it taste damn yucky...n e few of us were gone coz of tt...

we cant wait 2 hit e dance floor b4 finishing e vodka so i returned her...i was so pai seh 2 take at 1st...but she sae if frenz den juz take...lyk threatened me!!!oh newae b4 i 4get 2 mentioned...she's a mother of 4...n a super on n wild one...haha...newae...i was juz seh n not drunk...i can even remember wat happened tt nite...juz tt i cant walk str8 in e club...but once i stepped out...im alrite...n thanz 2 richard 4 forcing me 2 drink so much water...lolx...n it's e 1st time i c vincent seh + puke...juz how much 4 of us drank?!?but i can feel tt my alcohol level has drop drasticallie as compared 2 poly daes...is tis good or bad??nehow let e photos continue...

tea-break @ secret recipe wif pam

when richard n vincent joined us...

dinner @ marche wif all

n here comes st. james!!!when all were still sober!!!haha

let's start our party!!!

drink drank drunk...luv tis pix 2 e max!!!

e closer ones...

e nite has juz begun~~~

kisses...packs...muackz...

tis is damn cool!!!we haf les + straight + gay!!!haha

still wae sober...haha

here comes our shi lian pai!!!pam + me...

vincent's solo

e 4 of us...richard + mervyn + vincent + me

e couple...pam + jason

all of us...part1

all of us...part2

e 5 of us wif vincent being e photographer

all of us...part1

all of us...part2...end of shi lian pai~~~

a group pix wif eda + her hubby...

when e drinking part starting to get more xiong!!!

starting 2 get high~~~

it gotten worse...

n we went so crazy!!!lolx

a final group pix b4 we left...

n vincent puking outside st. james!!!haha
-23/05-
2 hrs of sleep + bad hangover...n still haf 2 go 4 acca briefing in e morning...after tt was canoe sea training...e few of us were having headache still...kept looking n disturbing each other...damn funnie...nehow met up wif louis yian n adeline in town...dinner + chill...

dinner @ rabbit brand...cheap n good...i alwae eat tt when i used 2 work wif '86 batch...

followed by desserts @ coffee club

n drinks @ alley bar~~~
-24/05-
sea training den dinner @ tampines one wif alex kanghao n shem...juz nice all of us were going dere n oso coz alex were so mean...so we decided 2 eat dere...haha...was supposed 2 meet e violent clique but they left without even telling...walked ard e new shopping mall wif e company of e guys...n richard called...so headed 2 town n tonned kbox wif e alcoholics...i tink my frenz plans my schedule 4 me instead of myself...lolx

individual shots...e covered 1 is poh choo...haha

im e onlie guai one hu stick 2 honey lemon n no alcohol...lolx

sing ur hearts out...n dun b emo nemore!!!

tis is wat frenz r 4...haha...we make fun of richard n got capture when we slept oso...n it's e 1st time i fell aslp in kbox...results of overwheling activities...lolx
-25/05-
celebrated odac's may + june babies' bdae wif e 13th batch excos @ substation's timbre...

let's warm up wif some candid shots...

dinner time!!!

shi lian pai wif louis

pam + yian shi lian pai

group pix b4 dear president came...

e 3 bdae galz~~~

happie bdae woonteng + sheila + shuqi!!!

sabo-ing time!!!haha

random shots...

tis is suppose 2 b a few pple shot...but it came up 2 so many pple running in 4 it...tt's wat my batch exco is all abt...camwhores!!!haha

pressie presentation time!!!hope they lyk e gifts frm us...=))

e last few shots b4 all parted...
-26/05-
bbq-ed @ shiya's place n celebrated xuan's bdae...we finallie meet up 4 once since last paper...lolx...after tt was nite @ museum 2 wif eric n vincent...movie is nice but i prefer part 1...

food + drinks 2 begin 4 e bbq~~~

bbq-ing part1

bbq-ing part2

group pix...

happie bdae xuan!!!

individual shots

n a group pix 2 end e nite...
-27/05-
dinner wif mervyn @ ps...den supper wif boonwee louis n yian @ spize...keatyin joined us 2 n we went some places 2 watch soccer...man u lost 2 barcelona!!!sian diao...i tink liverpool fans r out dere cheering man...haha

-28/05-
odac outing @ ecp...cycling or blading...den 2 old airport road 4 dinner...den relaxation @ marina barrage...n finallie supper @ lau pat sa...tis is e convenience when u haf so many cars...able 2 travel ard here n dere...

ready 2 set out...

cycled ard ecp wif few of them since every1 got separated...

where all bump into each other again...

end of exercise...

n time 4 dinner @ old airport road!!!

e view frm marina barrage...damn nice!!!

marina barrage part1

marina barrage part2

marina barrage part3

n finallie a group pix~~~
-29/05-
went over 2 mervyn's place 4 a swim...n richard yeo pang seh us so last min!!!my swim = swim 1 lap...haha...coz im aching frm e previous dae...full of excuses rite?!?haha...jacuzzi is e bez!!!nehow met up wif e babes 4 dinner @ manhatten @ central mall...den 2 winebos 4 a drink...so damn alot 2 update each other...lolx...after tt went over 2 lesbian pub wif joey...got 2 noe her frenz...haha...n i saw a few damn good looking bungs!!!my eyes were glued 2 them lah...n 2 bung sang wu ding 2gether...1 got manly voice n e other so gal...n they sang reallie well...both oso so good looking...i look ard n it still makes me feel bungs r so much sweeter den guys...mayb i shd take back e old route...lolx

dinner @ manhattan fish market...

e pair shots...

cheers 2 our 6 yrs of friendship n counting!!! =))

@ winebos~~~

e apple's supporters!!! =))
-30/05-
e dae when i collected all my bruises n oso e dae when k2 broke...it's damn sad coz sea training got 2 put 2 a pause coz of e incident...newae sent zam off 4 his grad trip after training...haf fun in aussie wif e rest...n dun 4get 2 buy back stuffs 4 us!!!headed 2 kovan wif mervyn 2 meet richard...they played pool wif dennis while i nua...dinner den we went over 2 mervyn's place 2 slack till last train hm...3 of us were coughing lyk mad...lack of sleep + too much alcohol i guess...haha...at least im e verge of recovery while e 2 of them r still coughing badly...pls stop smoking!!!

group pix @ t1

e guys + galz wif zam...
-31/05-
training den town-ed wif pam jason n eric...i cant wait 2 shop...but gss tis time round didnt tempt me a bit...mayb coz i noe im not working...cant afford 2 buy stuffs lyk last time...plus mum keep complaining i got tons of clothes...lolx

-01-05/06-
lunch + work + dinner wif canoeists everydae...

-03/06-
double o-ed wif canoeists...didnt even get a chance 2 hit e dance floor tt nite...kept playing games n drinking...fun but st. james was still wae wae betta!!!n it's also e nite when i fell n injured damn badly...i fell not bcoz i was drunk...wae sober n still haf supper...long story...oledi explained in e previous entry...n everytime i bathe...it still hurts damn alot!!!

while waiting 4 eric n vincent...

shi lian pai wif pam

group pix...vincent is damn idiot!!!

here comes all e drinking games!!!

random part1

random part2

bak ku teh 4 supper...i dun find it fantastic at all...would rather haf spize instead...
-04/06-
down 2 mervyn's place after acca...every1 checked their results xcept me...richard keep asking me 2 check...i entered my username + pwd but scare 2 enter...e butterflies in my stomach make until i got stomachache...plus richard sat on my left n mervyn on my rite...felt even more stressed...e pt where i hit enter was e worst!!!i cover e laptop immediately...haha...when i saw my results i felt really relieved n e butterflies were starting 2 disappear...i was reallie happie coz at least i dun haf 2 go thru uol stage again...n tks 2 those hu were reallie dere 4 me...newae pam left n we watched road trip...i luff until pengz...lolx...den mervyn sent me n eric all e wae back hm...tks so much!!!

-05/06-
went over 2 mervyn's place again...tis time round wif marcus n richard...we watched europe trip...it's similar 2 road trip...but i prefer tis...even more hilarious...i tried 2 control my laughter coz i tink i luff e loudest...damn pai seh...coz im wif lyk 3 guys?!?haha...nehow mervyn drove us down 2 spize 4 supper n it's a treat frm richard...coz he sae he got his pay oledi...tks alot!!!n mervyn drove me hm again!!!super pai seh...but still...tks alot!!! =))

-06/06-
im lyk stuck @ hm now...when it's a saturdae summore?!?tis is so not me!!!coz i cant join e rest @ sentosa n i gave nite cycling a miss last nite...damn 2 those injuries!!!i m so damn bored now!!!haixx

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<--her world-->

**tHe OnE aNd OnLiE**
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.29th jan 1986.
.code: #03.

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.4 in silence i find no rejection.
.i choose 2 luv in ur loneliness.
.4 in ur loneliness no 1 owns but
me.
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.nv luv a luv tt hurts.
.nv hurt a luv tt luvs.

.she desires.

.do well in academic.
.prada wallet + bag.
.b a trader.

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