|ost in |uv

-->miss independent<--

... etonic's journey ...

Thursday, April 30, 2009

efforts haf all gone down 2 e drain...
i forgo 30 marks 4 stats...tt's 3 grades down...
changed all e rite ans 2 e wrong one...shd i juz luff it off or cry it out??
kind of lost all e confidence in myself...angry sad or sian diao??
onlie can afford 4 another 16 marks at most...54 is wat i need 2 pass e overall module...can i make it??
cant afford 2 fail again...reallie cant...
wat done cannot b undone...
results shall determine everything...

**im tired...reallie reallie tired...n 4 once...i feel lyk giving up everything...

|ost in |uv @ 9:03 pm

Monday, April 27, 2009

i woke up finding myself in tears...e dream i haf was a sad + disappointed one...n all my recent dreams seemed 2 link up wif 1 another...it's a combination of all fixed feelings...n it kept me lying on my bed 4 few hrs 2 tink back of these dreams...wat if all my dreams were 2 come true??den e 3 of us will regret lyk totallie?!?or it's kind of lyk a wasted n wrong timing??will i get e ans frm e nez dream or will it b left dere 2 keep me tinking n tinking??shall not go into details of my dreams...

nehow...bm mac is a damn condusive place 2 study at...it's even betta den valley pt...so now my ranking will b...1st: bm mac...2nd: valley pt...3rd: rc mac...4th: airport...shall mug at bm mac 2nite again...but definitely after watching antm 1st...n den go crazy wif e stats...

**still unable 2 escape frm e fear of a breakup...

|ost in |uv @ 6:57 pm

Sunday, April 26, 2009

1 down...3 more 2 go!!!

6 daes more!!!freedom!!!cant wait ne longer!!!

shopping!!!gss will b here soon!!!
sleep more!!!eyebags n dark rings gone!!!
singing!!!ktv haf been waiting 4 me!!!
training + rock climbing + other sports!!!kill those fats!!!
meet up wif frenz!!!miss all of them so much!!!
belated bdae parties!!!all those hu i owed them!!!
gathering @ whicheva hotel!!!looking 4ward 2 ur nez return!!!
clubbing wif babes - joey n erin...les - dee n bin...t13 n hueva!!!
money money money!!!time 2 work!!!

so many many things i wanna do!!!everything will start in less den 1 week!!! =))

n i juz realise canoe galz oso called babes...means i've 2 cliques called babes n now i need 2 make it clearer...lolx

even though im so looking 4ward 2 8th may...but still acca is still e main 1 im looking 4ward 2...coz i've few frenz taking acca n majority frm les...cant wait 2 meet up wif all my cliques!!!so long since i meet up wif ne frenz aside frm sim ones...counting down!!! =))

leaving hm 4 bukit merah's mac now...gonna ton n mug dere...since i cant switch back my time...might as well sleep in e dae n haf full concentration at nite...n wat's more i'll b mugging alone 2nite so it's gonna b pure mugging n no power nap or breaks at all!!! =((

**may dreams bcum reality~~~

|ost in |uv @ 11:47 pm

Friday, April 24, 2009

08/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE jUn ReN~!~!~!
10/04/09 --> gOoD fRiDaE~!~!~!
12/04/09 --> hApPiE eAstEr DaE~!~!~!
13/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE aNnE~!~!~!
15/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE aLeX~!~!~!
17/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE nIzAm~!~!~!
17/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE hUi YiNg~!~!~!
18/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE mInG LoNg~!~!~!
20/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE cHrIs~!~!~!
20/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE jOhN~!~!~!
22/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE mAriLyN~!~!~!
22/04/09 --> hApPiE bDaE dApHaNiE~!~!~!
arh!!!im gonna crazy!!!never study so earlie 4 exams b4 n continuous tonned 4 so many many nites n not even taking 1 dae break!!!but still...i dun feel a tiny bit of stress!!!tis is so much worse den poly...poly i dun even care n alwae studied at e very last min...still rem yr 1 when i haf test on e nez dae...n still went town wif adeline n slack at pasta mania till late...n we onlie got worried e dae of e test itself n chiong 4 tt few hrs b4 it...n we still managed 2 pass...rite ade??haha...how i wish im able 2 do tt again n score well 4 all my upcoming ones...*cross fingers*

all e bez 2 all those hu r having their papers tml/ltr (if consider after 12am as ltr)!!!high d high d high d!!!

-10/04-
jb-ed wif sarah n eric...intiallie wanted 2 haf seafood...but i 4got e place n we ended up at some ulu place wif an acquaintance...she was reallie nice 2 share e cab wif us n she paid 4 it in e end...taking it as an exchange 4 a friendship...how nice rite...nehow we ate e mee hoon kuey tt she recommended after searching a few town 4 e seafood place...n somehow we bump into her again...n her hubby told her e place tt we r looking 4...n tada we juz went ahead wif our 2nd dinner...all e yummylicious seafood...a place where i alwae go wif all my frenz when we head 2 jb...

@ e mee hoon kuey place...it's reallie e kind of old skool mee hoon kuey...damn nice!!!

seafood tt we haf!!!

where e seafood rox!!!

finallie a pix of e 3 of us...

slurps!!!we finished all e food despite feeling so full after e mee hoon kuey...
-11/04-
mugging @ airport wif e usual few...

when we were still awake...

1/2 awake 1/2 aslp...lolx

n snoring loudly when e sun was shining at our butts...

breakfast @ popeye!!!e chicken is damn small!!!cheat our money!!!damn!!!haha

i luv cadbury chocolates n e advertisment rox!!!
-12/04-
groceries or rather tidbits shopping wif joyce wong...c e amt of stuffs we got 4 ourselves in e pix below...it will scare u man...n tis is wat i've been munching during tis whole study period...n gaining weight lyk crazy!!!haha...nehow after tt was mugging at rc mac wif sarah n clarence...

things tt help 2 destress n adding kgs!!!
-14/04-
fun run @ sheares bridge wif canoeists + post last training + destress b4 exams = laughter + kill fats + upteem of pix!!!mugging @ rc mac wif e few...n i bump into lianne n jeremiah dere...my fellow sportscamp frenz...lianne was in e same group as me in yr 1 sportscamp when we were still a freshie...n jeremiah was in e same group as me in yr 2 when we strive so hard 2 b a gl...all e fun n memories we share...aww i reallie miss np alot!!!

warming up n b4 reaching sheares bridge...

camwhore @ sheares bridge -- part 1

our crazy 1-10 shots...

camwhore @ sheares bridge -- part 2

jump high high...n we score high high d!!! =))

our icon...jersey + t-shirt...

e random shadow shots...

group pix @ sheares bridge...

so sweet!!!im a sneaky photographer...haha

e successful of e many many jump shots @ e suspension bridge...
thanz 2 e zhai photographer me...e guys got all e super duper nice jump shots!!!lolx

group pix wif all e nice nice lightings~~~

in pei yu's car...adding all e unpleasant smell 4 her...

dinner-ed @ pasta mania @ leisure park...

n all e childhood memories~~~

bagged hm wif all e nice nice sceneries...

camwhore during mugging sessions' break-time wif them...
-15/04-
w/o a nite of sleep...sarah n i continued our full dae 2 journey...she came over 2 my place but at e void deck only...coz my place is out-of-bound...feel damn bad 2 keep her downstairs while i went up 2 grab my laptop to search 4 pix 2 b printed out...den we head down 2 cheena-town 2 print e pix n i bring sarah round e whole place till raffles place...think she oledi 4gotten all e roads n buildings...haha...haf sakae buffet dere where joyce wong joined us...we ate lyk a pig n tis is oso where all e -ve s-words came out which most of them frm sala herself...haha...but i shall be nice not 2 blog out all her -ve s-words...

it was den back 2 cheena-town 2 collect pix...n on e wae i bump into irwan n samantha!!!sam is my pri skool budd n irwan is my poly class budd...n they ended up noeing each other as colleague...sg is damn small can!!!we crap so much outside ocbc building n damn...cant wait 2 meet up n crap wif them...though it's short but lotsa crappiness tt makes me luff non-stop during tt few mins...nehow...ikea-ed wif joyce wong after tt...i got my things n she got her haircut...it was a tiring dae w/o sleep...but a fulfilling dae wif all e things settled n a sushi buffet!!!

where e 3 super camwhorers + free loaders meet!!!

part of our food...read carefullie...it's onlie part of it!!!haha
-16-17/04-
last min decision wif e 'guys' 4 blood donation...n as mentioned in previous entry...i failed e test...so tada nez time again n a successful one...haha

e b4 n after tests...
zam's bdae surprise frm e babes -- e whole plan: hm-ed wif tt few hrs left 2 rush out something which was 0% done...veri veri last min indeed...n i almost missed e cake collection as well...e lights @ 4-leaves were switched off n i was kind of worried...fortunately e staffs were still counting e cash n i juz gif a knock hard on e door n collected e cake...hard time carrying all e stuffs...lolx...met up wif pei yu 1st @ je mrt interchange...den pam @ woodlands...n we spent e remaining hrs @ causewae pt bk...e babes msg-ed him at 12am 2 wish him...n was juz a normal sms so 2 not aroused ne curiousity...reached his void deck n prepared all e stuffs while waiting 4 sarah...went up 2 his place...

here comes e disappointment...knock on his door so many times...but no response...tried 2 reach him on his hp but couldnt get through...guess all of us were quite disappointed though...coz of e process of e whole planning...still rem it was 12.50am den...n we gif ourselves 2 1am...n if nothing happens...we'll juz leave...but his hp juz choose 2 connect at tt moment...so yup...waited n wanted 2 haf a 2nd backup surprise by hiding 1/2 level up his place...but we were kind of noisy n caught by him...surprise gone again!!!arhhh but lolx at e same time...nehow hope u still luv e failed-planned-surprise frm e babes...lolx...but surprises onlie worked once...coz if dere's a 2nd...it will b a more predicted one n it's no longer consider as a surprise nemore...i still luv e b4 n after surprise videos...e failed-planned-surprise + e after-surprise-honest-feedback videos...

newae...planned was 2 mug wif e babes @ woodlands mac but thanks 2 my mislook 24hrs on weekends onlie...we got 2 redecide where 2 study...somehow was zam's place or his void deck...bcoz of e 2 dearest bf (jason n eric) hu cant wait 2 c their galz...they rather want us 2 study @ bukit batok mac n eric drove down juz 2 send us dere...thanz 4 e effort even though bukit batok mac was reallie a totallie inefficient place 2 study...lolx

e collage...

while chilling @ causeway pt's bk...

preparing @ his void deck + on e wae up 2 his place...

e failed-planned-surprise 1 n 2!!!

e surprise part 3...

happie bdae nizam!!!may all ur wateva wish tt u wished tt dae come true...

his cake + collage...wif luv frm e babes~~~

e babes cracking zam's place down...

grab ur favourite characters!!!

n finallie a group pix...so colourful~~~

e failed-mugging nite @ bukit batok's mac...

taken @ e bakery shop while pei yu pays 4 zam's cake...surprise frm his clique...

2 end tis date-entry...may ur pilot dream cum true~~~
-17/04-
mugging @ rc mac wif sarah

-18/04-
odac celebrating april babies' bdae @ jun ren's place...his place is big wif nice cars 2!!!n i luv his golden retriever puppy ang ang...it's so damn cute!!!dog can reallie win my heart but of coz not those small toy dogs...i find those irritating instead...lolx...newae ang ang fell aslp when i was carrying him...n some of them sae i got e mothery instinct...-_-'''

some of e convo b4 cake-cutting...

presenting 2 u tis heart-warming little one...ang ang!!!

all of us got so attached 2 him...

2 all e 20+ pple...e + is made up wif 4 candle holder...how creative...

happie bdae 2 ourself!!!
santono's blog: april babies r hot...but march babies r hotter...
me: n jan babies r e hottest!!!haha

happie bdae april babies!!!

e 13th batch comm...excluding jiajia n serping...

n e final few shots b4 leaving...
it was den mugging @ airport wif sarah n clarence...n thanz 2 pam 4 giving me a ride dere...

our breakfast @ swensens...damn shiok!!!

a new favourite addition 2 our swensen's list...
-19/04-
a short meet up wif richard n his frenz @ tiong...cant wait 4 uol exams 2 b over n hangout 2gether!!!nehow rc mac-ed 2 mug wif sarah n pei yu after tt...

-21/04-
it's bens n jerrys free cone dae!!!despite exams period...still...how can i gif it a miss?!?plus i've alwae attend it every year...e queue might seemed long but it moves reallie fast!!!even queue twice n haf diff flavours tis time round...lolx...n yeah 1 is eaten on behalf of zam since he couldnt make it...nehow mugged @ valley point...den dinner cum supper @ spize wif eric 2...

1st thing i ate tt dae was b&j chocolate macademia ice-cream!!!

den lunched @ yoshinoya~~~

c e b4 n after of my combo bowl...lotsa chilli powder...shiok!!!

our 2nd scoop 4 b&j...where joyce wong tried so hard 2 cut our queue but failed...haha

our dinner cum supper @ spize...

n e many many randoms...
-22/04-
mugging @ valley point wif sarah...guess now she reallie belief tt i alwae study dere 2 bio ang mo n jap...coz dere's so many of them...haha...n kids melt my heart!!! =))

-23/04-
mugging @ valley point wif sarah...n im sick of fast food...n dining @ starbucks is quite x...plus it's inconvenient 2 juz leave our stuffs dere n go 4 bite...so i cooked lunch 4 us 2dae...but 4get 2 take pix...=(( haha...it's alrite lah...n yeah my food tastes great can!!!n sarah u betta admit it ah...by tugging in so fast tt u can even 4get abt e pix...haha

n our dinner was @ boon tong kee...been years since i ate tt...standard drop so much!!!

|ost in |uv @ 2:00 am

<--her world-->

**tHe OnE aNd OnLiE**
~!~!~!~kY|iE~!~!~!~
.29th jan 1986.
.code: #03.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
.i choose 2 luv in silence.
.4 in silence i find no rejection.
.i choose 2 luv in ur loneliness.
.4 in ur loneliness no 1 owns but
me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
.nv luv a luv tt hurts.
.nv hurt a luv tt luvs.

.she desires.

.do well in academic.
.prada wallet + bag.
.b a trader.

~her memories~

.feb'04. .mar'04. .apr'04. .may'04.
.jun'04. .jul'04. .aug'04. .sep'04.
.oct'04. .nov'04. .dec'04. .jan'05.
.feb'05. .mar'05. .apr'05. .may'05.
.jun'05. .jul'05. .aug'05. .sep'05.
.oct'05. .nov'05. .dec'05. .jan'06.
.feb'06. .mar'06. .apr'06. .may'06.
.jun'06. .jul'06. .aug'06. .sep'06.
.oct'06. .nov'06. .dec'06. .jan'07.
.feb'07. .mar'07. .apr'07. .may'07.
.jun'07. .jul'07. .aug'07. .sep'07.
.oct'07. .nov'07. .dec'07. .jan'08.
.feb'08. .mar'08. .apr'08. .may'08.
.jun'08. .jul'08. .aug'08. .sep'08.
.oct'08. .nov'08. .dec'08. .jan'09.
.feb'09. .mar'09. .apr'09. .may'09.
.jun'09. .jul'09. .aug'09. .sep'09.
.oct'09. .nov'09. .dec'09. .jan'10.
.feb'10. .mar'10. .apr'10. .may'10.
.jun'10. .jul'10. .aug'10. .sep'10.
.oct'10. .nov'10. .dec'10. .jan'11.
.feb'11. .mar'11. .apr'11. .may'11.
.jun'11. .jul'11. .aug'11. .sep'11.
.oct'11. .nov'11. .dec'11.

she reads...

4-heavenly adeline agnesnastasya agnesyau aisha altricia alvinchua alvinlee amelia amily andre angela becks caleb candy celine cheer christine chuyang clarence cynthia daphanie daphne dennis elson&yanda erin floyd hanzhong hermes huichoo jaclyn jane jasmyn jasonshen jasongoh jessie jiaxuan jingxi joey jolene joshua joycearriola joycewong june kenneth leeching liantee lindsey louis meiyan melissa michelle monica nizam pearl quenquen regina robynne ruisi rusty ryan santono sebrina serene sharlene sharon shuqi siaoying simcanoe simodac sinkuan squid stephaniekhew stephanietan szewei vincent weeloong woanyi xuantong yanling yasi yewcheo yiming yiyao zan

everyone screams!!!