... etonic's journey ...
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
27/01/07 - 28/01/07
21st Chalet @ Aloha Loyang
2dae is halloween n im rotting at hm blogging now...haixx...i wanna go out party!!!all e occasions tis yr juz seems so sianz...every1 is busy wif their own lifes now...sianz...i miss poly!!!
newae...havent been exercising 4 e pass 1++ mth...not even basic exercise till 2dae...even mum oso sae me...eat n eat but nv workout...she sae im fat!!!lolx...time 2 reallie train i guess...went 4 a short run after work n i feel so drain now...no stamina at all...felt so breathless n im running lyk a snail lah...haha...most prob 2molo my legs will hurt lyk hell...motivation is wat i reallie need...
frenz n relatives haf been ask me tis ques so many times...i cant belief even my relatives oso ask me tt...but i guess he doesnt read my bloggie nemore...so i shall juz blog it out...
-story begins-
them: do u still contact wif him??
me: nope...
them: y??u can alwae start taking e initiative 1st...
me: how 2?n i dunno how 2 break e silence...it's been so long...n afterall he's a guy!!!
them: wat abt msn?at least can chat online??
me: (2 frenz) haha...i suppose im still under his block list?or even he blocked n deleted me awae...
me: (2 relatives) nah...it's kind of weird...plus wat m i suppose 2 sae??
frenz: childish...guys r so childish/(silence)
relatives: it's okie...tk ur time...can alwae b frenz still...
me: (2 frenz) no comments...
me: (2 relatives) haha...c how...
-end of story-
Sunday, October 29, 2006
21/10/06 --> hApPiE dEePaVaLi dAe~!~!~!
23/10/06 --> hApPiE bDaE jIe~!~!~!
24/10/06 --> hApPiE bDaE sHiRLy~!~!~!
24/10/06 --> SeLaMat hArI RaYa PuAsA~!~!~!
29/10/06 --> hApPiE 21st bDaE eRiN~!~!~!
dere goes another weekends...2molo will b my blues again...working life is juz so dead...so routine...i h8 it!!! i cant wait 2 study...but which institute shd i choose??private uni r juz so x...haixx...n im still rather stuck at e course i wan...but at least skooling is 100% much betta den working!!!im so tempted 2 tender 2molo...things r getting out of hand...n i reallie got no interest in sales-related jobs...target n commission sux lah!!!
newae...been restraining myself frm clubs since im so damn broke at month end...n yup...didnt club 4 1++ week le...n i missed out on halloween parties as well...which i reallie didnt wanted 2...every1 hu saw me on msn on wed nite will alwae ask me e same ques...how come nv club...seems tt i've given every1 a reallie bad image of myself le...lolx...im so gonna change now...i need so much money 4 all my upcoming events n daily needs in nov...so so so much...track shoes is e 1st thing i need 2 get...n damn watch spoil at e wrong time...n it goes 4 my wallet as well...tis 3 oledi can cost me a bomb...not 2 mention all e activities coming in nov...haha...i tink oct salary will b gone at 1 go...=((
been meeting up wif all my ijians cliques lately...kellockians n theresians...heavenly 4 n secret 6...n oso yiyao n e rest as well...all galz yah...haha...n oso not missing out les lah...perhaps meeting up wif them change my life as well...since majority dun club...haha...i still feel more comfortable wif galz...as in sharing thots n everything wif them...as 4 guys...i'll alwae keep a distant no matter how close we r...plus all of them in ns now...n all i hear frm them is ns n nothing else...tt reallie bored me 2 death lah...but still...i reallie miss JOCK a lot...juz e 4 of us...chilling out n toking all e craps...e laughter n everything we used 2 share...when will those times b back??haixx...n 2 joey san: when r we gonna apply leave n go back 2 np??i miss np so damn much...co-op especiallie!!!
yum yum...i luv buffet!!!
happie 30th bdae catherine...
a great nite walk wif pts...a reallie long n tiring one...
cabbie hm after mambo nite~~~
childish??nah...fact is cute!!!
-=my evadearest secret 6=-
happie 20th bdae jasmyn...hope we did a great surprise...=))
happie big 21st bdae babe...
happie 20th bdae lian tee~~~
meet up...chill out...n slacking is our life!!!
-=heavenly 4=-
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
can some1 juz explain 2 me wat's luv all abt?!?i've been witnessing so many broken hearts recently...haixx...1 of which is e worst case is tt both r my reallie gd frenz...i reallie dunno hu shd i help...but i noe i juz cant sit down n do nothing...seeing her cry so badly last nite reallie hurts...i noe exactly how she felt deep down...i felt so useless at tt point of time...i couldnt do nething 2 stop her tears...perhaps crying out will mk her feel betta...she reminded me so much abt my pass...haixxbut i've alwae been telling myself...mayb tis is gd 4 me as well...if bad things doesnt happened...i'll nv learn my lesson...though depression state reallie hurts a lot...but i guess tt's a process some juz haf 2 go thru...no1 can ever understand how depression felt lyk unless they haf experienced it themselves...but even since den...i've oso started 2 belief tt retribution does exists...
frenz 2 me r e most impt...but 2 find true frenz r juz not so easy...those hu can reallie b dere 4 u when u r at ur worst state r actuallie not measured by e yrs of friendship...but those hu r willing 2 scarifice their time wif others juz 2 accompany u...juz 2 mk sure u r alrite n nothing happens...n i guess 5 fingers r more den enuff 2 count...been bottling up so much things...sometimes i dun even noe hu 2 turn 2...i cant even help myself at such things n how is it possible 4 me 2 help others...i juz feel lyk breaking down...but i juz cant...cant teared at all...ever since tt dae i mk a promise 2 myself...tt i'll put on a happie face in front of every1 despite how down m i...arh!!!
newae...as 4 now...i juz hope everything will turns out well 4 all of them...cousins n frenz...pls b strong...i'll b dere 4 all of u...alwae look on e bright side of life...=))
**e voice tt sounds so familar...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
04/10/06 --> hApPiE bDaE cAtHeRiNe~!~!~!
06/10/06 --> mOoNcAkE fEsTiVaL~!~!~!
13/10/06 --> hApPiE bDaE LiAn TeE~!~!~!
15/10/06 --> hApPiE bDaE jAsMyN~!~!~!
wow...juz realized i nv blog 4 so damn long le...so i shall blog as much as i can while digesting all e food i had...lolx...juz came back frm a wedding dinner...n guess wat...i ate 3-5 pple share since e rest of e table were empty...n all my relatives lyk damn shocked...n im serious...can u imagine 3-5 pple share 4 each dish is damn a lot lah...n it's so late le...n i drank lyk 4-5 glasses of red wine...damn shiok ah...haha...but...tis kind of things shd onlie happen once in a bluemoon...coz of FAT!!!
newae...basicallie...my life is still as busy as ever...n alwae insufficient of slp...but den life is so dead now...esp WORK!!!im so damn fucking pissed off 2dae...they blocked all e access 2 msn or wateva online chatting u can get...but since im in IT...at least i can finallie apply some skills 2 it...n im able 2 online again...haha...dere's a bloody fucking spy in us n it's damn obvious hu's tt bmw(big mouth woman) in us...wateva it is...if they ever block my msn again...i swear im gonna tender str8...tis pple r so wang en fu yi...we being so nice 2 help them celebrate their bdae n c wat we get in return??no more man!!!newae i oso cant wait 2 leave tis hopeless company...how i wished it will closed down asap...n i'll b more den happie by den...haha...but den 1 thing i seriously regret is making erin 2 join tis company...coz i guess she's suffering damn a lot as well...sorrie babe...how i wished all my colleagues will read tis...juz wanna let them noe tt tis is e worst company i've ever worked 4...n oso e worst colleagues i've ever met...obviously tt exclude my '86 batch...as well as my previous n current partner...=))
tt's all abt e whining n stuffs...felt so much betta at least 4 now!!!newae...been kept busy wif lotsa stuffs...catching up wif all diff cliques of frenz...celebrating tis n tt bdae n making myself broke wif all e dinners n pressies...*faintz*...n oso not 4getting tt i finallie went 2 swim!!!yesh...after 1+++ yr...n i seriously got no stamina...gonna trained up n hopefullie i'll b able 2 cut down on clubs n late nites out everydae...n oso will b taking up hip-hop dance nez mth if everything goes smoothly as planned...all i need is super lotsa cash now!!!
n oso not 4getting my all time fav pastimes...n tt's nothing more den my jap animes...trying 2 find time 2 catch up wif all e animes tt i've missed...n finallie i've finished watching e whole series of hunter x hunter...including e ova...oh my god...it's damn nice!!!i suggest every1 2 watch!!!still trying 2 catch up wif naruto n tsubasa chronicle now...n im gonna start watching bleach soon n many many more animes...lolx
newae...dere's a prob wif tagboard recently...so i've changed 2 another one...hopefullie tis wun gif me ne prob...as 4 pix...im juz 2 lazy 2 upload here since dere's countless of pix taken recently...so juz wait patiently 4 me 2 upload 2
<--her world-->
~!~!~!~kY|iE~!~!~!~
.29th jan 1986.
.code: #03.
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.i choose 2 luv in silence.
.4 in silence i find no rejection.
.i choose 2 luv in ur loneliness.
.4 in ur loneliness no 1 owns but
me.
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.nv luv a luv tt hurts.
.nv hurt a luv tt luvs.
.she desires.
.prada wallet + bag.
.b a trader.
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she reads...
everyone screams!!!