... etonic's journey ...
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
it's another dae of ktv-ing...but tis time at kbox...plus it's at marina square...brand new environment 2 sing...songs at kbox r so much updated den party world...summore we overshot by 1/2 hr without paying...sang so much more den e other dae...feeling was so great...but voice dying soon le...lolx...newae was supposed 2 haf our ice-cream buffet but totallie missed it...mayb we'll wait till study break ba...2 do lists 4 dec:
- replenish my slp
- slim down
- catch up wif skool work
- earn more money
- meet up wif all my frenz
- shop 4 xmas pressie
- cut down on chionging
tis r all e things i tink is e hardest 2 accomplish...dunno if i can reallie achieve all...but dere's 1 is e hardest i guess so didnt bother typing it out...let nature tk its course ba...im tired of everything...even organising events n stuffs...every1 juz dun wanna help at all...seriously need a break frm every1...juz wan some time 4 myself...i wanna go 2 e beach...a place where i can scream n cry out all my sorrows...a place where e wind blows n hit against my face...a place where i could hear e waves so clearly...it's juz a perfect place 4 me rite now...how i wish if onlie...
Monday, November 28, 2005
finallie haf started my 1 week of non-working days...gonna play till i drop man...haha...yes was e peak...most hectic dae...work frm noon till nite n was supposed 2 b on my cosy bed...ended up went hm throw my stuffs...changed n out 2 meet seb irwan n shawn 4 a movie...movie was at 2.50 am so went 2 fluid bar 2 look 4 jackson n e rest...took 2 cabbie dere...1st cabbie cheat our money...stopped us at momo dere...dunno sae dunno lah...ass!!!music at fluid bar was gd...dunno y but got no cover charge 4 us...irwan qia me 1 vodka...thanz bro...kind of moody nowadays...so went 2 get another drink wif seb...wanted 2 order 4 pops at 1 shot n treat them since i mk them go all e way dere juz coz of me...approach 1 of e bartender n he sae i buy 1 den he treat me another...so on...so i sae 2...which is actuallie 4 mah...ended up he pass me 2...n when i wanted 2 pass him my card...he sae no need...he qia me both...so zhai...haha
bought another 2 more pops...frm tis time frm another bartender...he charged me 4 both but it's okie lah...den tt bartender was behind him...den kind of signal 2 me ask y didnt approach him den can get free...i was lyk diao...haha...i prefer e earlier bartender newae...coz his drinks r much stronger n nicer...lolx
went back 2 town 2 meet up wif alan n catch saw 2 2gether...was damn scare lah...so damn gore which i seriously h8 it...but still muz admit e movie is gd...scare e fright out of me man...haha...n i dun understand y alan can luff during tis kind of movie...mayb nez time i shdnt sit bside him...lolx
chilled out at balcony bar after e movie...place was gd...tok so much crap n stuffs...haha...reached hm lyk 6++ am n ko immediately...energy totallie drained off man...n 2dae got 2 work...luckily managed 2 find replacement 4 my night shift...went back 2 skool 2 meet e few of them but didnt reallie studie...cant understand a single thingy...siansation...stayed till 11pm...feel lyk dying now...plus tis whole week is gonna b damn hardcore 4 me...gonna chiong at double o tis thu...nebody hu wants 2 join can gif me a ring netime...n i wanna go shopping 4 xmas pressie!!!but but...i need so much money...cant wait 4 xmas man...oso dunno where they wanna go tis yr...lolx
Saturday, November 26, 2005
23/11/05 --> hApPiE bDaE dIaNa~!~!~!
25/11/05 --> hApPiE bDaE eLsYnE~!~!~!
guess im damn suay 2dae...knock until my arm n knee joints damn hard...bruises all appearing le...n it's damn pain...burnt until my hands n cut my fingers while working 2dae...super sianz...damn shag man...summore got 2 extend 1/2 more hrs...sad n tired...guess reallie need a shoulder 2 lean on...
tis week is a damn fierce week 4 me...mainly working...juz hope i'll b able 2 find some1 2 replace me on sun so tt i can study 4 cp test on mon...cant wait 4 nez week le...took 1 week off frm work...wanna relax a bit...haf finallie reached my limits...sorrie 2 those hu these few days didnt reallie tok 2 much or sae hi or wateva coz nv reallie noticed my surroundings...lolx
yes was e bez of all...celebrated fiona's bdae...was a total surprise 4 her...hope she lyk e gift we got 4 her...summore is i choose de...n oso e cake...haha...guess chris oso damn happie lah...tis class damn zhai...damn gd in organising n giving pple surprises 4 their bdae...was a 5hr ktv session...but i onlie sang lyk less den 5 songs??spend damn lots n i can officiallie declare broke le...gonna start my dieting program reallie soon again...so guys pls dun force me...i got my probbie 2...kind of miss driving more n more...but no money so my pdl will b going into e trash bin reallie soon...haha
2dae role play 4 wisp was damn zhai...didnt even rehearse a single time...n our gp did e bez...dun even haf a single bad comment...summore cher still tot we rehearse lotsa time...owen n i were looking at each other n lyk wanna luff but ctrl lyk hell...role play was damn natural n didnt follow e scripts...super zhai!!!newae...most prob going back ob nez fri...been lyk 1 yr of mia??haha...hope wun feel awkward or wat lah...gonna start 2 noe new faces again...long wae...haixx
[it makes me feel so happie seeing u...though dere wasnt a single word being said...but was satisfied...could feel e warmth in me juz by tt simple smile...haf things actuallie changed frm den??did we actuallie learnt nething frm our pass mistakes??feelings in u 4 me haf totallie faded long ago...but mine juz cant seem 2 b gone...y is e world so unfair??how i wished i could hold u so close n hug u so tightly now...whispering 2 ur hear n sae i luv u...]
tink im mad??no im not...tis is something tt i've wanted 2 express out long ago...dunno if u still reads my bloggie...haixx...how i wished wat adeline said was true abt going back 2 their x...summore going back will last even longer...kind of true oso...my budd is oledi a damn gd eg...chris n fiona...n yup so many many more...luv is so complicated!!!
Monday, November 21, 2005
drowned...so dead tired...totallie lost interest in studying now...havent even done ne work since week 1...hmwk r all piling up each dae...kind of overloading now which reallie kills me...n work haf been so tiring due 2 working nite shift every now n den...juz wanna gif joey a big hug n thanz so much 4 being so auto 4 tt massage 2dae...almost collaspe on my table during cp lesson...lolx...gonna start 4 job hunting soon...hope can find a higher pay job so tt no need 2 work tt hard le...guess nez week wun work at all...seriously need a break n catch up wif skool work...plus few frenz oledi approached me 2 go chiong tis fri & sat...kind of missed clubbing wif all of them...shall c if i could handle wif my schedule...haixxwent 2 e parliament 2dae n got 2 wear kind of formal...so we were kind of lyk centre of attractions in skool 2dae...haha...was a damn gd experience dere...learnt so much things...so much more interested in law firm den my lesson...reminds me when i was young...dream was 2 bcum a lawyer in e future...n oso 2 enter law & management in tp...but kind of tough dream now...dream is alwae a dream...wonder when will it bcum true...
Compromise is not a crime, it's a sign of maturity, benevolence and intelligence. If you're single, it's time to get out there and resume the hunt for the perfect partner. You'll be amazed at how many prospective admirers will want to have a shot at that same title. All you have to do is get dressed and get out there. You'll be the center of attention, no matter where you are, and for only the loveliest of reasons. If you're attached, be sure your already perfect partner knows just how much you treasure their companionship. <-- kind of true but u r not e 1...sorrie
e care n luv i wished 2 get frm certain pple was not even dere...juz cant express my inner self nowadays...all i could do was 2 put up a shag n fake look in front of every1...hiding so many things 2 myself which im trying hard 2 achieve n reallie struggling wif...things r juz not lyk b4...dere's no 1 dere...a shoulder 4 me 2 lean on...mayb tis is e kind of path 1 will tk 2 bcum independent...juz feel lyk dying sometimes...no more worries...slp peacefullie 4eva...*collapsed*
Sunday, November 20, 2005
2 dae since i online...kind of achievement...haha...actuallie was not even hm lah...weekends pass damn fast 4 me...had cartel on thu wif class...e amt of bread we ate was damn scary lah...haha...newae it's free so yah...hahafri shall cut till damn short coz so many many things happened...skool.hm.work.seb's hm.ton.mahjong.cheese cakes.maggi mee.mac breakfast.tt was wat happened basicallie...didnt even slp 4 a sec...plus got 2 work on sat morning...sad
sat was my last dae at sheraton...n thanz 2 alan 4 giving me a lift dere...kind of blur since didnt slp...luckily managed 2 tahan all e wae...went hm 2 put down stuffs n out again...met up wif joey 2 chill out...town was so sian...so headed 2 clark quay 4 some drinks...saw kerrie n she's damn happie 2 c us since she got nothing 2 do...haha...joey went off 4 a while n bad things happened...shall not elaborate...during tis time...chat so damn much things wif kerrie...so long nv meet up le...we send joey off 1st...while walking...saw some unsightful thingy at e bumjee jump...got 1 ang mo guy strip n show his d**k 2 every1...den took e ride lyk tt...super no comments...summore after e ride he still can describe how his d**k felt...faint...haha...i was lyk super duper e diaoz...
kerrie gif me a lift back on her vespa...finallie get 2 tk her vespa...but e thing is...i was wearing a skirt...pengz...got such a hard time riding man...but was kind of fun...n she's damn jealous i leave so near 2 all e clubbing areas...haha...newae oso dunno how i tahan throughout e 2 days without ne slp...tink im gonna collaspe real soon le...lolx
**juz wish tt i could hold on 4eva
Thursday, November 17, 2005
1 yr haf passed...juz lyk tt...1 yr ago...at tis moment...i was happily enjoying myself at rasa shangri-la...n now im blogging abt it...juz how much haf things changed...frm closeness 2 coldness...guess u haf totallie 4gotten it's exactly 1 yr le...didnt get 2 c him 4 such a damn long time...n among all e time...it juz haf 2 b 2dae...summore c him twice...y n y n y??r we juz fated or wat??still dun get it...his frenz treat me lyk total strangers...n my frenz treat him lyk a frenz...not even a smile or wateva...plus tis thing onlie concerned us...y does his frenz haf 2 treat me lyk tt??2 4gif n 2 4get...isnt tt sumthing u alwae sae 1 shd haf...it's kind of obvious wat's going on esp when u n ur frenz walked pass us...*speechless*was supposed 2 watch juz lyk heaven wif owen...but got 2 tk over my colleague so last min...newae guess i shdnt watched tis movie 2dae...juz wrong dae...n luckily i've got work 2 spend my time off...was damn tired but juz hope time wld pass faster...hand was kind of ache frm 2dae badminton n i broke a plate...tot wld get scolding but nope...instead every1 was concerned wif i was hurt...mk me feel damn guilty instead...haf 2 do closing which added on 2 my tiredness...mayb im juz e unfortunate 1...got 2 support myself...but tis is my life...so yah...
yes was out wif my clique...had damn sinful meals wheneva im wif them...main thing was tt yah...we guys noe can le...n hope u njoy our company...n im gonna get u e chip munks no matter wat...juz wanna mk u happie...=))
Monday, November 14, 2005
finallie got e time 2 update some stuffs...1 week haf passed n lotsa things happened...got lotsa things 2 update but will not blog till so detailed if not entry will b damn long le...quit sheraton...stopped driving 4 1 mth le...zouk wif class last wed was great...esp e pop n luffer we had when everything splashed out...those hu went were either super late 4 thu class or pon...slp during pi lesson...sakae on fri wif them was oso damn fun...2 chocolate salesman outside heeren pester me lyk hell...n frenz left me dere wif them...ended up toking crap wif e pple...haha...went 2 sebrina's hm 4 some mahjong session after tt...did some studying wif cliques on sun...stayed in skool till 11pm lyk tt...got cp test 2dae...n it was so damn difficult...2 weeks had passed n im way behind lesson...dun even noe wat's going on n stuffs...need 2 catch up wif all my lessons b4 it bcum worse...is dere a time frame where all couples got 2gether n a time where they separate??frenz ard me r facing probbie...im not a gd counsellor...dunno wat 2 do...im a bad lover...m so damn worried 4 my dear gal out dere...it's gonna b a tough road now...juz hope tt u can b strong...does luv = hatred or does hatred = luv??does 1 reallie means a break up when they reallie sae it out??how fast does it actuallie tk 1 2 4get e other whole heartedly??dun u juz missed e times we used 2 had??when u reallie find sum1else which every1 thinks is so much betta den e previous...do u reallie feel happie??can u actuallie get back e luv u used 2 had or is it juz 2 replaced ur previous 1??n how wld ur new partner feel if they found out they had been used??can u ever find sum1 hu luv u juz as much as ur previous 1 again??wld u rather remain single though lonely rather den 2 find sum1 u dun reallie lyk 2 kick ur loneliness away??
so much ques in my mind...spinning here n dere...when will all these b erased frm my mind??6 mths haf passed...n i seriously dunno wat haf i been doing...juz cant start a new 1...e journey of starting a whole new r/s is so tiring...plus e fall i had previously does mk my heart grow a bit stronger...but at e same time...feelings 4 pple haf decreased drastically...cant find nemore interest in r/s though e past is still dere...dun wish 2 step into r/s 4 a rather long time...it's juz 2 much...n 2 renoe tt sum1 in n out is so tiring...gonna tk so long time again...mayb u juz find it easy n njoy having a partner's company...can admit at times do feel rather lonely...but mayb tt's life ba...=))
2 my dear gal : im juz a phn call away...u r e 1 hu pulled me up...juz hope i can do e same 4 u...dun keep everything 2 urself...it will onlie hurts u more...seeing u lyk tt reminds me totallie of wat happened 6 mths ago...noe exactly how u feels...n heartaches 2 c u lyk tt...n 2 e few of them...treasure wat u haf...it's not gonna b easy 2 get sum1 u reallie luv in ur life again...stay strong n happie...n sorrie if i m a bad consellor...
few more days 2 go b4...
Monday, November 07, 2005
suay is e word i can describe myself...fell in skool 2dae...slipper no friction n slip n fall...damn sianz...toe now lyk super useless le...haha...blood juz cant stop bleeding...alan piggy back me all e way 2 canteen 1...on e way so damn many many pple lah...coz it's lunchie time...so damn pai seh...haha...blood was scary...can even drip until e floor...joey was damn sweet lah...keep helping me 2 wash e wounds...try 2 stop e blood but juz cant stop...damn funnie...haha...saw patricia in e toilet n she was concerned...but i didnt expected her 2 go n come back twice 2 get me water n 2 packets of tissues!!!it's lyk...wow...damn touched man...thanz babe!!!sebrina came 2 look 4 us osoafter tt joey n alan force me 2 put plasta lyk hell man...every1 was looking at me...n i mention something abt wed zouk...n 1 of e bs lecturer was lyk saeing...leg lyk tt still can dance ah...haha...still ask me 2 tk care...damn cute ah...tt's e diff between bs n it lecturers...lolx...seriously...my classmates r so much more worried abt my leg den me...i dun even gif it a damn man...how sweet can they b??no choice but got 2 work...alan send me all e way 2 sheraton n tt saves me so much frm walking...thanz bro!!!was walking n hopping lyk a cripple...haha...hide in a room during work coz couldnt wear e shoes...was so damn pain...n still bleeding...*sad*
newae bs haf officiallie started skool le...saw so damn many many frenz in c1 2dae...n chris sae my fan club is back...haha...main pt is...my class is great...though all scattered ard in diff class le...but still meet up 4 lunchie 2gether n tt reallie feels great man...1 whole big bunch...sitting n luffing 2gether...1 last final sem...plus tis sem's modules r so damn tough...n lappy everydae...sianz!!!working lesser n lesser each week le...wanna company my frenz more n oso concentrate on studies...n yesh...tis sem surprisingly...we r attending all e lectures...spend more time!!!
sat had tis fruits dipped chocolate kind of thing wif joey seb n irwan...not bad lah...but not chocolate buffet...still waiting 4 my chocolate buffet at esplanade...ne1 up 4 it??shopping wif seb on sun in between work was kind of rush...but at least still managed 2 get some things n chatted lots...haha...seb haf bcum super close 2 us now...more n more on...so zhai...haha...chinablack was still e 1 tt shocked us...plus she stayed wif us all e way till 6++ am!!!reallie gonna treasure every moment i haf now b4 we graduate le...n more shoppings n chillings out man...t13s rox!!!
n definitely not 4getting...it's oso time 4 some meeting up session wif secret 6...heavenly 4...les...stc budds...etc...=))
Saturday, November 05, 2005
after 1 week of skool...hmm...i've been practicallie late 4 all e 1st lesson 4 lyk 1/2 hr...haha...can sae i kind of purposely late oso...but 2dae was coz of 970!!!tis bus alwae mk me late lyk hell...haf been e last 2 reach class everydae except 2dae...alan was after me...haha2dae was IS lesson...wisp...noe qutie a few pple in e class...not tt bad...1st lesson muz form gp le...5-6 pple n obviously e gp will consist of alan owen chris sze wei n me...n not chun yap...haha...n we name our gp as t13...got 2 start off wif assignment 4 role play le...confirm gonna b damn fun since it's e few of us...but e most sian thing is im e onlie gal!!!haixx...confirm role play i kanna lyk hell...haha...n kind of feel damn bad now...spread my virus 2 alan...he starting 2 fall sick le...oops!!!
guess it's gonna b reallie soon tt i'll bcum a job hopper le...dun wanna stay in sheraton nemore...getting bored n everything...e schedule kind of clash wif my studies...damn sad...cartel onlie work a bit...so getting another job...it's juz not easy 2 support oneself...n oso 2 4get abt all e pass...haixx
**i create tis...frm e bottom of my heart...haf been telling myself every now n den...2 4get n 2 4gif is something i've been trying hard 2 do tis few mths...n i noe im handling it quite well...m happie wif e results im showing 2 myself...living without ne regrets is something i wanna achieve frm now on...in order to gain something...u'll definitely need 2 scarifice another...how sad can life b man...no 1 is perfect...nothing is perfect...so njoy life while u still can...as long as u r happie...y bother wat others tink abt u...=))
Friday, November 04, 2005
frankly speaking...im damn touch wif all my frenz out dere...didnt expect so many many of them out dere care 4 me when im sick...some even msg me even though we didnt meet...n some came 2 my workplace 2 c me...so sweet man...luv n hugz all!!!
guess im totallie drained man...actuallie feel aslp when i was working 2dae...1st time!!!luckily im alwae sensitive 2 noise if not i confirm kanna scolding de...slp twice summore...sick + tired can reallie kills u when working...newae met up wif jock alan n shar after work 4 some ktv session...i cant sing at all...no voice...sing a bit den stop...haha...was so damn fun chilling out...more 2 come man!!!
meeting up wif class cliques 2 chill out after lesson yes was great...slack at 6th ave n tok so much crap...all got diff pts of views...now is our final sem le...haf been 2gether 4 e pass 2.5 yrs...every1 haf change so much...it's juz so fun 2 grow up wif ur frenz...=))
kind of heng tt i didnt went 2 zouk yes...was 2 sick le...plus galz haf 2 pay 4 covercharge though ladies nite...plus class postpone 2 nez wed...which is damn gd!!!juz tt nez thu skool all will faintz...haha...tt's y i luv my class...njoy 2gether n pon 2gether...rox man!!!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
31/10/05 --> hApPiE haLLoWeEn tO aLL~!~!~!
im sick...so damn sick now...haixx...wat m i doing here when im suppose 2 b working n get my 1.5 pay!!!fall sick oso wrong time...so sianz...guess i kind of overworked myself nowadays le...newae it might b a gd thing 2 b sick...coz at least i've a slight chance of slimming down...yeah!!!
yes was e 1st dae of skool n e veri veri 1st lesson was pm...was late lyk 1/2 hr n i purposely late de...coz didnt reallie wanna feel e awkwardness in tt class wif e yr 2...so pai seh...dun even noe a single of them n tis time pm dun even haf exam...wth rite??
had jack place's 4 lunch wif joey alan n shar...after tt rushed 2 work n back hm 2 change n meet up wif e chiongster...haha...after much travelling...we finallie settled down in chinablack...luckily yes dj was reallie gd...n black was kind of happening oso...haha...almost all of us wore black 2 skool yes n oso 2 black...damn power i must sae...esp e galz...pix r damn nice 2...galz in black...n oso pix wif some weirdos in black...damn funnie lah...had supper n reached hm 6++ am...sunrise le...slpt ard lyk 7++ am...haha
bad thing was...had 2 wk up at 9am n i was so damn sick lah...had dim sum wif my relatives n after tt brought them 2 tis damn nice dessert place...had dinner at sakae sushi...n i saw so many pple in town 2dae...town is indeed still my 2nd hm man...haha...im having such sinful meals nowadays even when im sick...was kind of eating n slping while eating 2dae...2 sick 2 even chase after my little cousin...*pengz*
**miss independent have a damn sexy voice now
<--her world-->
~!~!~!~kY|iE~!~!~!~
.29th jan 1986.
.code: #03.
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.i choose 2 luv in silence.
.4 in silence i find no rejection.
.i choose 2 luv in ur loneliness.
.4 in ur loneliness no 1 owns but
me.
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.nv luv a luv tt hurts.
.nv hurt a luv tt luvs.
.she desires.
.prada wallet + bag.
.b a trader.
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